My Favorite Verse:
Isaiah 41:10 "Fear thou not for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."
For some time I have debated about writing a blog about some of my struggles. I don't want to focus on the "trials" or the negative part of life. Yet, this title came to me and inspired me to write and be an encouragement to myself and others that deal with health problems. Some of you know my struggles, some do not, and there are probably many of you that just do NOT understand!--I've come to realize that the latter is just a part of life, and that those who have never experienced real health issues will probably never understand.--Sorry! If you have never heard of my health problems - well, all I can say is that people struggle every day with autoimmune diseases and no one even knows :) Besides, who wants to hear about bruises, pain, insomnia, extreme fatigue, migraines, etc.? It is so much more fun to hear about my sweet kids! There are a few people that I do not mind sharing my health issues with, and I know that they will pray for me. I covet that. I know that after sleepless nights and hard mornings those prayers help me through another day.
Even though I am still young, only 28, I do not understand when older people talk about the vitality, energy, and ways they could multi-task and run circles around every one else when they were young. Inside I smile and think....if you only knew how hard each day is for me to just get out of bed. If you only knew that I literally grit my teeth every time I go to lift my little boy and girl because it is so painful. I could go on, but I do not need to. Hopefully you get the point! It is funny, but usually when older people talk about their health problems I totally understand their world!--Hee hee!
I know after some years of health struggles that as a Christian I need to be focused on the fight. In other words, I need to look to what needs to be done right now and not think about whether or not I'll have the strength to teach junior church, help with the children's Wed. night program, do nursery duty, give my kids baths, and the list could go on and on! My pregnancies are very rough and I deal with a lot of bruises and pain. My doctor tells me to keep my feet elevated the majority of the day.--I laugh! I am a mother of two small kids (which I LOVE) and I serve in a small church that really doesn't have anyone to replace me when I quit serving. Let me stop here and stay a while! It makes me sad to see people in perfectly good health who do very little in church when there are so many needs. Why is it that so many times the one's serving and doing so much are those very pregnant with child, struggling with health issues, or the same one's who have had to do it for the last 25 years?! Well, the answer is simple to me. Some have a heart to serve and others do not. How can you sit and hear announcements of the areas that need people to serve and not be willing to volunteer? Since I push myself to keep going every day I have very little sympathy for excuses such as work or tiredness. I think many people seem to think their life is too hard! Let's get over our excuses and serve our Lord!
I ask God for strength to keep serving. I do not want to be sitting during a battle nursing my bruises. Even though that can be easy to do! There are times when I have to pull back from ministry and make my family the priority because my health doesn't allow for me to serve outside of the home. But, I know God wants me to get back up from those hard days and persevere.
Isaiah 41:10 is such a blessing to me. I can trust in God to strengthen and help me. He will uphold me!